Fear!?!?!

Man, how can a four letter word be so scary...it's ALMOST as horrific as Love, but that's another story (just kidding...I love love)

Anyway, I've been afraid of one thing or another all my life and sorrowfully, there's no pill to take for it (darnit, where was the rise in greed associated with medical advancement when I needed it...again, we'll talk about that later). Now, just to bring you up to speed a bit, here are 5 things I've been and maybe still am afraid of:

1.) Death (what will people do without me)
2.) Failure (...then what)
3.) Trying ( see above, I'd rather dream it then fail at achieving it)
4.) Not being accepted because of Me (..."if they see, will they leave...or will they stay anyway")
5.) Feeling Helpless (I'm a control freak...it's my safe haven)

Now you know my dirty little secrets most have been overcome (so I think), but there's still a great deal of fear within me. Oh this thing...this four letter word that has the power to control so much of so many. Oh this thing that has stagnated my growth and diminished the worth within myself...it's limited my expectations and challenged my very being; It stops me before I can even start. When I think about what I want to be....what I want to do, fear laughs at me.

I get this disrupted feeling in my stomache....I get gitterry and my speech becomes jumbled...I even get the chills, now this brings about a feeling of HELPLESSNESS...OHHH... and boy do I hate that, so that thing that I orginally feared has brought on GREATER FEARS... what the heck am I supposed to do now, being scared to death of everything... (oh crap, don't say the "D" word) The birth of my sense of humor came out of my fears (good thing, because I can sure crack a good joke).

In all seriousness, this thing has got to stop, because I've got soooooo much work to do; within my community, my Black Race, and my own personal existence...I can not be moved!!!

I ran through my Bible last night...and did something I've not done in too long; I asked God to lead my hands...guide my fingers and this is the passage I was guided to:

And David said to his son Solomon, "Be strong and of good courage, and do it;" (1 Chronicles 28:20).

I wasn't TOO surprised, since God has never failed me yet...He's taken me places when I called Him to; it's only when I go on my own that I end up lost someplace, but those last two words resonated in my mind all night...'do it' (and I thought Nike made that up). Do WHAT wasn't the question, but just the fact...'do it' whatever it may be...whatever causes fear to laugh. So, with that...here is ONE thing I'm going to do without fear: Throw myself into the fight for a better Black (all things true and good within the Black Race)...our lives depend on it. I want to fight like my ancestors fought with pride...I want to take back our children and their mothers and fathers...the streets have owned them too long, and we need to have a family reunion in the worst way, but I will not fear the enemy (whatever their face)...I will be strong and of good courage and "JUST DO IT"

We've got a lot of work to do, my enlightened brothers and sisters and we shall not fear that the earth be removed, but we shall be strong and of GOOD courage and do it. GOOD courage is enough...because seemingly courage alone isn't going to get us up that mountain...we've got to have GOOD courage!

I'm not going to pose a post question....feel free to comment as you will, but if you care to, please share something you plan to free yourself from the fear of.