Monday, April 30, 2007

Tears to Heaven

I thought I'd leave something small and light since I didn't have anything to write (lol...didnt rhyme that on purpose) All the spots I've visited today were shared writings so I thought I'd share something I wrote some years ago. I never call anything poetry it's just-me-writing...this is something I said to God on paper...a cry from my soul sending some Tears to Heaven.

Tears to Heaven

Please tell me what I’m doing wrong and why have I been made to hurt so long.
Not as long as others, but too long for me.
I love You, and I long to see the good You have in store for me.
Life for me could be so much worse, but that doesn’t stop the pain when it hurts.
I don’t know what my future holds, the days seem so long and the nights are cold;
I lay in weeping and wake in mire.
Oh my God, I’m so tired…I can’t, I won’t, I could never leave You;
God I NEED You. I’m lying down beneath You frail and broken.
In every place within me
I NEED You Lord to heal me.
Not just temporary, but for now and ever.
Show me what You want me to see, tell me who You want me to be.
I will not give up because of my love for You…
because if it were left up to me…
I’d be through!!!


`NEFTY said...

That was lovely because I too find myself talking to HIM because I can't trust anyone. Praise the Lord!

Mizrepresent said...

I've been here before, more times than i can count. Why i would ever doubt him, i don't know...because each time, each moment, every pain...he saw me thru...every time!

CapCity said...

Sistah JMW - u been peeking into my journals? i LOVE this peice! and the visual that u chose is SO cool. thanx for sharing this side of you.

Shai said...

I was tripping and stressing over nothing and everything. I stood up to move from my desk at work and I had this gut wrenching pain. It said stop doubting and let go. I let go, the pain eased and I focused on other stuff.

Rich in the Stl said...

The trials they come to make you strong.....

In faith.

JustMeWriting said...

Nefty: thank you very much lady. Talk to Him always, but learn to trust others too...and not so much because they may deserve it, but because of your Trust in, I know that sounds crazy, but in a previous post I said one of the things I leared this year is that the ability to trust in others is within me; having nothing to do with them...remember Greater is He that is in you, then he that is in the world (1 John 4:4)

Miz: GIRL...we've ALL been here; it's a state of depression, but believers know even in such a state we have only to call on our Father and He'll deliver us in a hurry. I think we fall into doubt because of human frailty, we're so flawed, but because we've tried Him and know Him this time is just temporary. Praise God! Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning. (Psalm 30:5)

Cap: LOL. I'm sorry for snooping sis...I need to mind my bitness, but you said once before we were kindred spirits... LOL. You're know I give myself in small portions...HAHAH!

Shai: DON'T YOU DARE STRESS... remember you're too blessed to be stress. God will come in that still small voice and speak to your every situation. I love to hear Him speak, but you've gotta listen and I'm glad you'll be fine boo-boo. We all need to practice lifting each other up in prayer.

Rich: OH THOSE TRIALS. I used to fear them...until I learned that God didn't give us the spirit of fear...and then I saw how Job said "the thing I feared most had come upon me" (Job 3:25) our fears bring that which we fear to fruition, by the power we give the enemy. I learned that...then I went back to my roots... LOL. I KNOW I was BORN to BELONG to HIM... therefore I shall not fear... (psalms 46- my favorite)

WOW... that was long, if you guys didn't figure out by now... I'M LONGWINDED... LOL, but to God be the glory today...I'm feeling high in the Spirit and that's the GREATEST place to be... thank you my friends.

Dawnya said...

A beautiful well as great comments.

dc_speaks said...

yes you are long winded and I appreciate each and every syllable. I'm proud to count you amongst the few that has become part of my daily interactions.

I loved the post and thanks for the wisdom that comes out of your writings, Tanya.

JustMeWriting said...

dawnya: WHY THANK YOU MUCH...I can only try.

dc: LOL... well at least I don't change... LOL. I'm ALWAYS longwinded... and thank you kindly sir, you know it's returned.